Just having some fun, and... I can see....

Just having some fun with a package to Alison, one of my sisters -in-law (??? or is it sister-in-laws???) Living with chronic Lyme, and healing from it, is like a roller coaster. But, about twice a year for the last , I don't know how many years, for a few hours, I can see clearly. Don't get me wrong. I'm not blind or anything, and some would say that my sight is way better than others. But, it's this feeling, that when I can see clearly behind my eyes, even the 6 panels in the doors look amazing to me. My head clears, I can focus, I feel positive, and feel like I can do anything. 

Dealing with physical symptoms, pardon my Francais, but it sucks. When your body keeps having to deal with so many things not being quite right, even if you can tolerate it, well, it takes your focus away. One can become distracted, while the mind focuses on what the body is constantly feeling, especially when the feelings change constantly like the DVD player ball on pause for too long. Bouncing all over the place. 

 The sinuses become affected a lot, wreaking havoc - it's like a constant war going on in the body. Anyone who deals with sinus infections/problems will know what this is like. 

Anywho, it feels so nice to see. Wow! What a treat.:)

I spoke to my cutie nephew on Skype

He lives abroad, 8 hours ahead of us, so I've never met him in person. But, today I met him via Skype. He's got his own keyboard and mouse and loves it. He just turned 2 on my birthday 2 weeks ago.

Got to talk with his Mom and brother, and his Dad, my brother. That was so nice.:)He was actually a bit shy on Skype:) So cute. Can't wait to meet him and hug him up ! :)

Doctor Says overall Stable...

This one's labeled 'Dad grunting'.tehe-one of the kids labeled... A few years back at some match.
Ken and his baby sister visiting from Hawaii, a couple of years ago. Yes, my hubby wears his work/gardening pants out. I know women who would never allow this from their hubbies. Hahaha...it was just on a trail up to a monument in the middle of nowhere.hahaha...Ah, what the heck. He's got fabulous legs.:)
He called me back a short while ago, and said with confidence that overall he is stable- which is what hubby wants to hear. Of course, I'm waiting for more healing.

His rib area is fine, so Ken is just feeling the deterioration of the rib area. But , even there there has been healing. Maybe he's just feeling some arthritis , which should be helped by the Protocel.

Doctor'll check out his neck next week, but there was only slight activity there, and in other crucial areas there was improvement.:)

Now I have to convince my hubby to be focusing on the complete recovery, instead of just stability. After all, with God, ALL things are possible.:)

Wrong Day-Arggh!!!

Ken with his Mom about 7-8 +- years ago in Hawaii for his sister's wedding.This is before the cancer.
So hubby got the date wrong, but I can't blame him. He had his scans on Monday, and it is typical to see the Dr. on Wednesday. But when we got there, the receptionist said that his appointment was next Wednesday! That was frustrating, and Ken didn't want to wait to hear, so we asked the Dr. to call.

 He called my cell, and I guess I didn't have reception, so I got a voicemail. He said if I had questions to call him tomorrow. But, basically that in general there wasn't much change. That some things looked a little bigger( Protocel killing off the cancer turning it into blobs that look bigger, but that are empty cells-that's what we're praying for, and that's what they have been looking like).

He also said, with a lilt in his voice, that actually some of the cancer looked better. So, it seems that once again, the scans reflect ambiguity, which looks to be in our favor. (Read Tania Harter Pierce's book,Outsmart your Cancer- Alternative Non-Toxic Treatments that Work).

So we'll see. We'll have a better feel for things tomorrow , and next week. There's been a nasty cold going on. My one daughter had it in the fall, and I was very concerned, but it wasn't the flu or encephalitis, which is what I was concerned with. She was burning the candle at both ends. 

And my other daughter had a nasty-similar- cold about a month-2 months ago. But she cleared up w/in the week. Then , my son had a head cold a couple of weeks ago, and then the gasoline got my immune system down, so that I finally joined the crew(which I usually never do-I stay pretty healthy despite the Lyme). It was just a nasty,(for a few days), head cold, that I used my homeopathics for, and am fine, with very residual effects at this point.

We usually don't get so sick around here. Although I do think that different people, or different families , go through good years, and bad /worse years.

 But, what I'm getting at is, that Ken might be fighting a low grade version of the nasty cold, and that it may have landed in his glands. The Protocel,(natural supplement that he's taking to hopefully get rid of the cancer), is a very powerful anti-oxidant, but nasty is nasty. Hopefully , it's just something simple that he's got to work out of him. He is battling lung cancer after all.

So that's the scoop.

There's a show that I'm thinking of doing in June. I've been having a hard time staying focused, what with the willy nilly overspending that our government seems to be doing. If it wasn't good under one president, why would it be better under another? When there is no money, you don't go out on the town. Very disillusioned by all sides in Washington these days. Anyway, it's been a little preoccupying. All this spending does nothing good for the confidence in the economy, and well, sales go  with the art selling business.

Concerned? A wee bit. Re-evaluating things, and feeling pretty gloomy about things. Throw the Swine Flu/N1H1-2009 flu in the mix, and no one closing our doors, like every other country in the world is doing, and well, yeah, I'm a bit worried. Who wouldn't be?

And our graduate is going to Hawaii in a few days for her graduation gift to herself, with her best friend- visiting her two aunts, and basking in the sunlight. But, Oh, those locked up planes and their recycled air.......

going to the Doctor's to find out about Monday's scans results

I'm weepy. I'm coming out of a fun head cold, and I'm weepy. Ken got scanned on Monday. Showering, packing up a gift, post office, and go to the chiropractor's. Haven't been in ages, and I need it with this cold to heal quicker.

Then it's 10 minutes to Dr. S's office for a 1:30 appointment.

He found another lump on his lymph node. I felt it. I asked him when he found it. He said, "Oh, a couple of months ago." " !!@@##!!!Why didn't you tell me!!!???!!!" "Did you tell the doctor?" "What is he going to do?" "!!@@"???!!!!You're crazy!!!!!"

Maybe it's the cancer coming out of him. Maybe it's an infection that needs anti-biotics. He tested positive for Lyme, but inactive. I pray that it is something simple.

He took his glass that had his night time Protocel in it , downstairs to the sink. "Oh crap," I said. He usually forgets it, and I say "Oh crap." I'm thrilled when he remembers. Today I said "Oh crap." I don't want anything staying in my mind that alters my faith. I'm vulnerable now. I'm under the weather, the chores are piling up, nobody cares except me. The world is crappy, and I'm questioning everything with,"Is it worthwhile?"OK I'm bummed, but I'm coming out of the pity party.

I feel like everything's just mounting. I know it's because of the way I feel physically. And I want this Lyme to be over with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My glands have been feeling yucky with this head cold.

So, the tears fall to my lap. I love him so, and want him back and healed. I don't know what I'd do without him. Please Lord, grant complete recovery, complete health to my husband. xo

Prayers and warm wishes accepted.

23 Years ago yesterday.....Chernobyl...and

...this little girl was inside my belly, at the end of the first trimester. I normally would've travelled to the USSR, but for this trip went to Czechoslovakia, Hungary, Yugoslavia. I drank the milk, ate the salads, and the cows were dying nearby us from the winds coming from Chernobyl, in Ukraine, in the former Soviet Union where the worst nuclear disaster occurred.

I took tour groups around the world, and the former USSR was my specialty. I traveled there quite extensively, making it to Moscow alone, about 70 times. I would take about 100 flights a year in general, and learned to sleep in contorted positions, in order to have the energy for my work. It was a 24 hour a day job. The hours were insane, and I had to be at the beck & call of my tourists, who I escorted from the US to the country, or countries that we would visit. 

The company I worked for the most had trips that took professionals for continuing education credits- for seminars in other countries with renowned professionals within their fields.

So yesterday was my sister-in-law's birthday, and her anniversary. 23 Years ago she got married, and I had to miss the wedding because of my job. I was already scheduled, and there was no one who could replace me. When I came home, everyone was very concerned about me. I'd heard a little about Chernobyl, while abroad, but not to the extent that I would hear about it in the US. They tested students coming back from the area for radiation-but a young pregnant woman, at the end of her first trimester? Hahaha! They did nothing in this country for those returning from the area. Kind of like how we're doing nothing on our borders, with a potential pandemic. Big brains in Washington and the CDC ! (drug companies have a bit of a say in that one!)

So, at the hospital after I delivered Alex through a mid-wife, the young resident in the Long Island, NY hospital just happened to be a former Soviet citizen. He said that she was so healthy, but we wanted to check her out thoroughly. He said that he would do it, but that it would be for us, not for her, because she came out so strong and healthy. She hung from his fingers with her own 2 fingers, right after delivery. Amazing. Of course, I prayed daily during all three of my pregnancies-actually, whenever I thought about my baby inside.

But, we watch out, limiting x-rays  of any kind as much as possible, especially for her and for me.
And as you can see, here she is all grown up and gorgeous. She has been extremely good at mind over body in healing herself always. She is so motivated to be healthy for events or things that she wants to do, that her body follows suit. When she's had enough of , say a cold, she gets on and gets going, and gets it out of her. She's good and stubborn, like her parents:)

Hubby holding little Cutie

So this is little cutie, my great/grand niece, in hubby's arms. She was watching Transformers on TV at her Christening party yesterday. She's 3 months old, and observing so much. So strong, she loves to stand up and her new thing as of yesterday is bouncing/dancing while standing up(especially for her Mama:)  ).

 Can you tell that we're all in love with her? What a GOOD baby. ........Little Pinkie, in previous post, is for Little Cutie here. I am told today that she LOVES her little monkey. 'Score' ! as my kids say:)

 Her parents are rather elegant and contemporary in design, so I wasn't sure if Little Pinkie would fit in. Well, I got a special phone call about her 2 favorite gifts, and one of them was Little Pinkie! . She has monkeys on her wall, and monkeys on her sheets, and monkeys in  frames in her room...you get the picture:)We all absolutely love babies in our family. We dote upon them. Who wouldn't? :)