I have been listening to older cd's that I listened to 10-30 years ago. The music is touching things inside me which were just 'hanging out'. Remembering me as a single person. That's a lot of years ago. Remembering who I am and what I've been through. Remembering feelings, emotions, thoughts, inspirations.
Just read Clutter Busting Your Life by Palmer Brooks. He 'clutter busts' people's homes with them, and helps them to 'clutter bust' their lives. (He is also a comedian). I can get rid of just about anything, just give me the time to do it. Right now, I still have some papers that need going through and shredding, and art materials also. The hardest part is saying goodbye to things that I want to do.
In elementary school we had a sub one time who asked us 6th graders if we liked certain subjects. I said yes to all of them because I loved learning, and still do. When he finally asked who liked math, I raised my hand. He stared at me in disbelief. I don't think that anyone else raised their hand. Math is just another language to me. I like exercising my brain, beating out cash registers. Ok, not all the time, like when I am rushed or tired. I like keeping my brain smart.
So, I have to get rid of artist materials- fabrics, papers, a little bird cage, etc. that I just won't get to for a while. My husband said that I had all these 'just jobs'. This 'just' needs a little of this, and that needs 'just' a little of that. I see the potential in many things. But, sometimes, life gets in the way and changes things. So I am changing some things around here. Our family life changed drastically, so I have to now work a lot. My scheduling is insane at times. Have to simplify it, because I 'just' can't do what I've always done.
So I am lessening the distractions so that I can add new adventures and people in my life. The latter is scary, and I'm not that much up to adventures these days, considering the things we've experienced in the last 6 years. Such is life. The ups and downs change constantly, but the one constant I see when I look, is God's hand in everything. Something may seem bad, but works its way out. It is then that I usually realize that the worst did not happen, that we were protected once again from some major travail.
When I see these everyday things, I lighten up, because I know that things will be alright. And sometimes we have to wait longer than we want for some things to occur in our lives. But, I am helping things along by removing fun stuff. It's hard because I do not want to. I think of what I have paid, or how much time it will take me away from other things that I want more in my life. But, you know? That's ok. That's just ok. Because, when one door closes, another one opens.
And I am opening up my life to the new me. Like the butterfly, I am clutter busting my cocoon that I have been in for quite a while. I think I will take a sip of this nice drink in this tall glass.
What do you think? Should I insist upon selling all the these things on-line and earning much needed moneys back, or donating a bit and helping others? The more you give, the more you get. I guess it's win-win either way I go.:)
Enjoy a refreshing summer drink, as you burst out of your own cocoon!
xo Lydia
